Good morning world! :)

Heureux comme un poisson dans l'eau...

Pale blue dot...

"....you see a dot. That's here. That's home. That's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. ...every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there - on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam. The Earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. ... Our posturings, our imagined self-importance, the delusion that we have some privileged position in the Universe, are challenged by this point of pale light. To me, it underscores our responsibility to deal more kindly with one another, and to preserve and cherish the pale blue dot, the only home we've ever known."

-Carl Sagan

"When the going gets weird, the weird go pro..."

So things have been a little hectic lately. Maybe even weird. I feel like someone flipped me upside down, shook me out and set me upright again, and now I'm just trying to shake off the dizzy spell and get my bearings. There's so much going on all at once and my emotions are in hyper-drive. Remember "Flight of the Navigator"? I'm David right now. Yeah, it's confusing. To make matters worse, my dad got mad about something really ridiculous and hung up on me today. Hung up on me. It hurt my feelings, but then I thought, You're old! You're not allowed to throw tantrums and hang up on people when you're old! Weirdo... And then I thought... Weirdo... Old... Tantrums... HST. King Weirdo himself. King of rolling with it; embracing it. Maybe I'm looking at all of this the wrong way. Maybe at his age, my dad's entitled to throw a fit now and then. Maybe at my age, it's okay for life to shake me up a bit from time to time. Maybe I needed to be reminded that I'm not in charge- that I'm just along for a ride and at best I'm allowed to steer once in a while.

"No More Games. No More Bombs. No More Walking. No More Fun. No More Swimming. 67. That is 17 years past 50. 17 more than I needed or wanted. Boring. I am always bitchy. No Fun — for anybody. 67. You are getting Greedy. Act your old age. Relax — This won't hurt."
-HST

Maybe he had it wrong. Couldn't he have embraced his sassy old man-ness, thrown a little tantrum and slammed the phone down on someone? Couldn't he have taken a walk, kicked at a peacock, shot at some inanimate demons and jumped in a pond naked? Because really, how serious is any of this? Isn't it all just helping us along to who we're meant to become? And how will we ever know what's underneath it all if we give up and give in to the chaos?

I want to enjoy as much as I can and just... be happy. The effort is finding happiness in the navigation itself; but I'm working on it, one weird moment at a time.

It'll be ok. It'll be great. Embrace it as it comes. Embrace the uncertainty and the challenges, because they're life, they're the thing, not just the path to something bigger... better... more. Be grateful.

But realistic...

"You better take care of me Lord, if you don't you're gonna have me on your hands."
-HST

Homesick.